Recently I left an internship. Basically I just quit, but it felt really good. I was working full time at a new job and trying to make it to church for youth group every Wednesday night. It was crazy, honestly. I made it from May until just a month ago. My family suffered; my job suffered. Then why do I feel like I should be going back?
Sometimes I let myself get too wrapped up in things that I shouldn’t. I put emotional value into physical objects. My wife is constantly trying to get me to throw things away when we move (which is every year), but I know what’s going to happen and I get angry. That is kind of how I feel about this church thing. It’s not rational or logical, purely a emotional thing. I have gone to that church for over ten years now; its been a constant in my life when nothing else was.
But I guess we all have to move on sometime. I have started going to a new church, I have been focusing on my job, and really putting in quality time with my son. I know that I can only do so much in a day, but why do I feel that I should ignore what’s important to me to help others?
I don’t think it to be a matter of you ignoring that which is important to you. Some people are wired to be givers and some people are wired to be takers. You are a giver, and have such a huge heart for others.